I never really thought about my limitation or i d rather say my full potential... but once it has been activated, it can be pretty massive, but i have to admit, i have been feeling edgy recently. all the trips and business related issues... i am learning growing but also really tired, mentally more than physically... i used to look forward to weekends a lot, but now to me. weekends are another way of saying weekdays, Angela told me we are the same kind people. always try to bear the burden and make people happy sometimes even put ourselves into some really unbearable situation.. why is that? Am I being too nice or it is really gotta stop?

The upcoming 4 trips are really worth looking forward to. I am sure I will have a lot of fun relaxing---keep my finger crossed

I am thinking maybe i should create a show called The growing pain--adult version.. unbearable but worth having, because along the way, you grow up really quickly...

Hope to come back soon

Have you ever felt like you are too intense about many things? Or how should i put it? -fussy?
I think that's basically the case for everyone. right? dont even deny it. Have you ever thought of
losing control of everything. just let it be,, forget all the restrictions and limitations and
curfew and whatever things like that?

I remember the lyrics from One tree hill-- let me feel. i dont care if i break down. let me fall, i dont care if i hit the ground, let me die a little. cry a little at least i know i lived just a little.

Modern society gives us too much pressure and responsibility, aint you tired yet? Yes i am.

so loosen up. man. enjoy life a little bit. walk outside the line a little bit. feel you are alive.
Today Shanghai is experiencing the strongest typhoon in 10 years. does that mean anything? God only knowss. Just some thoughts... FYI.

The new album in my space is quite nice. do you agree?

lol

           Dido's songs are great.

Have not been touched by a drama show like this for a long time since I watched SFU, but anyway, american shows are full of surprises which is a good thing, right before i am lost in this so called modern, slutty and whatever they call it, these shows will pull me right back on track... SFU to me is shockingly educational.. i dont think many people would see that show the way i see it. But anyway i keep it to myself and it did help me a lot. then after the 512 finale came up,, i was rather upsettttttt,,, at the beginning of the year. UB caught my eyes and snap my finger, i finished the first season in 1 week and still could not get enough, It is really marvellous. American Ferrer really taught a lot about holding on to yourself and acting the way who you are.. UB is coming back this month btw..YEAHHHH

And this EVERWOOD show, i heard this name from my favorite sitcom W&G... didnt pay a lot attention back then but when i had no show to watch ( Which is the most unbearable thing to me) i searched all over. finally this show came up and hit it off. after the first season i am HOOKED by this wonderfully made show. A world famous doctor living in new york.after his wife tragically died, he moved to a very small town named everwood. the whole reason he did that is b/c his before his wife died.she told him that everwood is the most beautiful place in the world she has ever seen.. if anything would happen to her.He can find her there.. in order to keep his promise to his late wife. he gave up everything ( which is humanly impossible for me to give up if i have that) then moved to everwood.. brandnew life, brandnew everythinggggggg.. the adjustment. conflicts within and external the familyyy... touching cant even beginn my word to describe the great show. all the characters are so vivid and believable. Ephram, Andy, Delia, Amy.Bright, Colin, Nina, Harry... i can go on forever.. they are wonderfully portraying a great show or shall i say a wonderfully real and heartwarming showwwww. no wonder Will  mentioned this show and this show got a lot of awards..

still watching it. the second season now.still so much care about their characters fate and whats gonna happen to themm.... i feel the bond with them. and i feel their happiness. feel the sorrow in their hearts and eyes.

The credit ( beginning)of the show is impressive too.. all the memorable moments  in the show. they  painted  them in pics  and framed them.. which makes them more memorable . 

It got me thinking. living in a world like the US,esp.NYC, a world famous doctor give up all he has then move to a small town in the middle of no where to keep his promise to his wifeee, and in that place.his heart feels relaxed and belonged and bonded to his late wifeeeee.... the plot is really moving. i dont know if it is realistic. but idealistically i wish it is true. cos no matter wherever you are. finding the feeling of your heart belongs there and the feeling your heart is satisfied is the most important thing to everyone..

Shanghai is pretty messed up city, it gained a lot. but meanwhile, it lost a lot.. i wonder how many people really feel heartly belonging here or mentally satisfied?

Keep going.man.. in time you will find your everwood where your heart belongs.


HAVE YOU EVER SAID PRAYER, AND FOUND IT WAS ANSWERED????

 

The longer I stay in my company. the more I love it. A lot of awesome colleagues who are friendly. humble and once more professionally awesome! I still remember last time. These Chinese colleagues working in French project went to France to work, and now, the Italian team will go to Milano next month!!!! How awesome is that. As long as you work hard, everything will be paid off. your dream of going abroad, your dream of being a team leader and so on..

Hold up!Your day will come, and you know which team are you in! Man!

The trip home next month is also another thing that I do expect and look forward to. Wish everything will be going my way!

Lovely weather. lovely people, lovely company.... LOVELY basically everything!!!

                   YEAH

The last week was absolutely all about Diana, the great concert < Concert for Diana> and < Diana and me> < The NBC interview with the two princes > everything all point to our beloved princess of wales-Diana,

I didnt know too much about her actually, but after watching all these amazing programs on the satellite TV, i began to concretalize the great imagine about her. her charitable activities, philanthropic  manner, the loving giving caring heart.. these are all so natural and spontaneous, i can tell she was not faking.. also all the famous ppl from the concert telling the whole world the true and sweet stories about them and Diana... I wet my eyes many times..  

She will be 45 if she is still alive. but i mean who would care how old she is? cos she is living in our heart forever.

the heaven sent princess, you will be long remembered by us on this F... up planet. no matter what. we wish your days in heaven rock!!!

A little chaos recently, helping Dear Anna. dealing with my own stuffs and issues. dealing with PR...... bla bla bla. nothing much to complain. but trivial can actually annoy you a lot too. anyway, they will pass. just hold on there. ok? man?


I hope you dont mind. i hope you dont mind. that i put down in words. how wonderful life is when you are in the world!!!
This is your song.

Recently, i got this new philosophy because of working for IT company. the whole methodology is about setting up a WBS
with different phases. and whenever you finish one milestone, you mark it and acknowledge it, gradually without you even knowing, you are very close to accomplish your project. 

I never thought that i would work in this filed. but i have to say. this field rocks and i do love it... the colleagues here are so nice and humble. plus. they are very talented ppl here...

Lucky me!!! and remember my milestone philosophy... catch you later

Before this tuesday i always believed one's ablity is limited. but after that. i have to change my belief now. I was really amused by myself too. i have to admit that i was not very spontaneous enough to take that challenge. but after i did. i was totally up for it. until that day i totally killed. ( including myself) anyway. i will never forget my another big personal show. hehe..

Recently. all my friends got something going on, good. bad. neutral whatever.. but everyone got something going on.. it is great to hear this. ppl making choices every day. making changes every day. taking actions to realize their dreams every day. so all these made the world circulate. thats why this world is so dynamic and non-stop

Rain. dont forget the dream that is deep down your heart.

To myself.. sufferring is another way for you go grow stronger and bigger..

They will come. they will passsssssssss

Suddenly, love Lene Marlin's songs very much again......

Moving on my life with less burden than before, too tired, my shoulders...

Let me have more fun and relaxation.

If our arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt
Will we lose this chance again?
Strange roads with different signs
Don't even know where we divide
Are you my enemy or my friend?

'Cause I don't know you
And you don't know me
It's the same sun rising
We all just look to the sky
If we try
We can work it out somehow
If you don't know me
And I don't know you
How can we be fighting
We're all connected it's true
Reaching out
It's only love that pulls us through

We all grieve in different ways
If one tear could wash away the pain
We're all free to have the faith we believe, yeah
The world sleeps at different times
With one turn your day is now my night
We all live sharing the air that we breathe

Reaching out, reaching high
Reaching out
Touching you, touching me

If your arms were reaching out
If our words could only bridge the doubt